Hey yo! again!.

Yes i feel lucky. I know i not good enough to get into J2. I know almost everyone ard me is much better. But yes by GOD everything was possible. At least part of my hardwork paid off. I think i have to work super super hard next eyar. Oh yeha. i have not done my reflection. I want to celebrate today. but its already pretty late. I don't wanna do chinese today. Ok i'm ranting non stop. maybe i'm glad, i'm puzzled, im stress by chinese and PW.( mind you my chinese fountation is bad, tahts why i'm worried for it.)

Ok i don't think anything will change if i continue to rant non stop. hmm..
Let's start the reflection going.

first for chinese, i failed chinese and i'm nog surprised.
HOW to improve?
- Practise more compos
and paper 2
- listen and speak chinese?

Econs? i just got relatively good marks compared to the others.
HOW to improve?

-PRACTICE PRACTISE PRACTISE...
- read the lecture notes immediately after lectures and understand them.
- WRITE out the essays u are practising.
- LEt teacher mark
- ask if u have questions and u don't understand tutorials
- HUILING go do ur mircro economics reading tomomorrow.

Maths? i got an A. wow! actually i got a C in promos. they pulled me up during moderation and my continual assessments helped me achieve that too! yay

- PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE
- finish tutorial and do some tys practises? better to do some than none.=)
- don't make careless mistakes?? this falls back on the enulf practise i have
- ask if u have questions and u don't understand tutorials

Chem? i got a D. CAn't believe all my hardwork did not pay off. haiya..
so wierd. need more practice? need tuition? NO..
SIMPLE answer. NEED to clarify.
thats most important afte a year of learning CHEM. haha. i think miss yap is pretty cold to her students thats why i don;t dare to ask.
- CONTINUE practising
- and the never give up attitude


GP? read more newspaper FORUM page.IMprove ur language and content.
HOW?
- read lor
-time management for paper lor
- read more lor

BIO?? I passed! i think thats because of moderation. and my CA marks. but yes.. i will contuinue to STUDY properly. MUST study properly and make sure i catch things fast during lectures.
HOW to make sure alll these happens???
- make sure u read ur notes b4 hand lor..
- make sure u clarify on that day b4 leaving for home.


ok i'm kinda tired..i'll turn off now! continue my long winded reflection another day after chinese paper and OP.:P i think..

Group NY012 on the 40th storeyof block 146 in toa payoh lor 2. the wind was really really strong. Look at my hair its flying like no bodies' business. Look at the packet in the middle. Its famous AMos's cookies..

SO SORRY QI YING.. I thought i could bring ur thumbdrive home... I didn't want to accuse you or argue on the phone.. So SORRY..I'm sure everything will go on alright with miss choong's stuff..U can use this reason to defend yourself.

Hmm. i just read jin yen's blog. She seems to have enjoyed her whole JC life. She raised up something which was useful to me now too.. Some of her sec sch friends her saying that the grass was grenner on the other side. But then she said that it doesn't matter, you just have to enojoy whats around you know. only if I enjoy than i can be thankful than i can appreciate. I've been missing all this because of 1 factor. I DON"T KNOW how to enjoy ... I guess thats the most important reason why i feel my life have been relatively miserable and sad for these past few days.

I also read that Jin Yen blog that quite often she has friendship problems. I guess that happens rather frequently for her.,TRUTHFULLY, ihave not fought/argued with any friends before. I guess when i came to JC, i experienced my first arguement woth a friend. HAHA.. BUT both of us have clarified many things.. through giving each other space. IT helped for us. I feel less tense and much much more relaxed. I feel that i can speak to her with feeling guilty, inferior or intimidated anymore. Frankly, i feel happier for her and myself. I suppose this is how friendship slowly grows after giving each other space.

What have i done for the past few days???
1) i sprained my right ankle
2) I BAKED delicious cookies!! after so long
3) I watched TV (including the Phantom of the Opera)
4) I managed to sleep 2 times in 24 hours.
5) I blogged! :):) and i read other pp's blogs.
6) i changed my blogskin!

MAny pp has been put into my life for JUST 1 main reason. GOD WANTED ME TO EXPERIENCE IT. AND LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES. I think GOD has overdone it.. sometimes, i feel that i have NO ONE to turn to..I even feel useless to turn to GOD sometimes. Thank GOD he gave me my family which i can fall upon when i feel down. I mean really DOWN. ESP my MOM.. SHe was there for me whenever i was down.
most pp depended on their friends when they feel DOWN. WELL i'm different. I felt really really werid at first. BUT then after a while, i felt that this is GOD's decisaion, i can't change it. maybe this is a TEST on faith on GOD.

OO.. talking about that. I can elaborate more. BUt i think i shandn't this poat is really pretty long. YES. i just found out. THANK YOU GOD!. ITs all a test..good.

open house is coming OP is also coming. EXCOs have been doing good, needa debrief with them individualy.. oh yeah regarding open house, ilya, maas, sian tzu, wei ni, and madeline( i think) JOanna and myself came on a sat to do up the banner. ILYA could draw so well, WEIni could paint very well too!.I think i'll look great when it is hanged in btw the staircases.

GOing back to how i feel about things around me. I was kinda EMO for a period of time, maiking pp around me feel worried and sad for me. So i decided to change ever since then. NO more EMING. i don't like to pp to feel sad for me..i will want all (everyone ) ard me to be happy. I know that sounds impossible. But i will try my best to brighten their days. I think this can be considered as HUILING's LAW already. lol.. making pp feel happy..:P:P

I found out that pp need me to repeat whenever i say something. I think my mind is simply slow in thinking and articulating the words that i want to express. Probably that is caused by the lesser communication in JC.

ok.. the WR has arrived. I can go and print now.:):)
thanks for reading for anyone who has read. i really appreciate u straining ur eyes for this.:):)

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